It's a strange day when you realize you've got to kill a part of yourself - a soft and giving part - for your own good.
It's not quite as simple as 'kindness being mistaken for weakness.'
We all talk about how to overcome the dark parts of ourselves - the negative bits that can overshadow our otherwise good natures at times - but we almost never talk about having to push away the impulses to be sweet and kind in order to survive relatively unscathed in a world that is riddled with avarice, manipulation, and thoughtlessness, though this skill is just as necessary.
Even if we want to be wholly soft, gentle, and generous, this can, in some ways, be nearly as self-destructive as being hard, cruel, and selfish. Learning how to love and give in the right away is a difficult balancing act.....and I'm wobbling on the tightrope.
It's not quite as simple as 'kindness being mistaken for weakness.'
We all talk about how to overcome the dark parts of ourselves - the negative bits that can overshadow our otherwise good natures at times - but we almost never talk about having to push away the impulses to be sweet and kind in order to survive relatively unscathed in a world that is riddled with avarice, manipulation, and thoughtlessness, though this skill is just as necessary.
Even if we want to be wholly soft, gentle, and generous, this can, in some ways, be nearly as self-destructive as being hard, cruel, and selfish. Learning how to love and give in the right away is a difficult balancing act.....and I'm wobbling on the tightrope.
You are not alone.
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